I have moved on. Gone are those days when I used to wait for someone who would never turn up. Now I no more need you, let alone waiting for you. Now I have many new friends, I met new people made them my dearest pals just to forget you and forget to miss you. The tears have dried. The pain is killed. Sudden mood springs are over. The memories are erased. Now I am what I once used to be. But this time stronger. Stronger enough not to allow anyone come closer to me.
I still remember those nights when the tears rolled out of my eyes for no reason. I knew the number of times I controlled my tears from rushing out and hid my face from my loved ones. How hard I tried to conceal my grief when they figured out something was wrong with me. The number of lies I told them just to make them feel I'm alright. Now neither I need to lie nor tell the truth about you, you are no more in my life. I still remember those hard days when the wind used to dry the tears on my cheeks. But now the same breeze brushes my hair on to my face leaving a smile on my face. How wildly I searched the roads when I passed by your area expecting to see you, even though I know you are the only and the most busy person in my life.
I still remember those nights when the tears rolled out of my eyes for no reason. I knew the number of times I controlled my tears from rushing out and hid my face from my loved ones. How hard I tried to conceal my grief when they figured out something was wrong with me. The number of lies I told them just to make them feel I'm alright. Now neither I need to lie nor tell the truth about you, you are no more in my life. I still remember those hard days when the wind used to dry the tears on my cheeks. But now the same breeze brushes my hair on to my face leaving a smile on my face. How wildly I searched the roads when I passed by your area expecting to see you, even though I know you are the only and the most busy person in my life.
The number of times I cried when you were not happy and I was not there by you to make you smile, while you never approached me for any solace. May be you thought I was not strong enough to give you strength. Instead you went to your so-called-friends. But whenever I was in such a situation I thought of no one but you, only you could make me normal. Stupid I was to think all that.
I used to tell my problems I had with you to my friends to reduce the agony and to get some advises from them. I was not in a position to support my own thoughts. I fell to that extent because of you. But now I Rule and I rule right, because I have seen what is wrong through you.
Every time my cell buzzed, I always expected you. But it was never you. God !! you were my life. I had nothing in which you were not involved. But now my cell floods with messages, good wishes from the people who care about me. By the way, your number is no more in my contacts , as if I care.
How many times I felt lost to you. I was not my usual whenever I was with you. The 'Me' you have seen neither anyone else is gonna see nor I am gonna show. What all I am changed to complete opposite when I was with you. I accepted it with a sweet smile. But you saw it as my defeat. But now I won, I won by rejecting you.
I know how I told the weird things which I hated the most just to see you laugh and which was in turn to see me smiling. But now I don't even remember your face, save your smiling face. I used to search every face that passed across me with the hope that I might find you. Even now I do see people that but just because I admire beauty and that doesn't mean I'm in search for a new someone.
The places I went with you, the movies we saw together, the songs we sang for each other once reminded me of you. But now they are long-gone memories. Now I have beautiful moments with the people who love me, rather than the sore memories of the one I once loved. I took up different hobbies, responsibilities just to make myself busy, just to keep my mind away from you. Now I hardly remember you. You are gone.
I heard all the sad songs that ever existed on this earth. I waited for you to sing those Akon's songs saying that it was your mistake. But now I love Akon more than I loved you because he at least understood the value of girl's heart. Anyways, you are nowhere near my thoughts. I have thrown you out of my mind. I put my family and friends on the top now.You are past. A past that never existed in my life.
I have moved on, that doesn't mean I found someone else to love. What it meant is why do I need someone I love, when there are many who love me. This is what is called moving on. God !! you made my world so small, which was surrounded by you and your thoughts. I came to know that the world is actually so big and bigger are the problems of others. Mine are just nothing.
I have moved on, that doesn't mean I found someone else to love. What it meant is why do I need someone I love, when there are many who love me. This is what is called moving on. God !! you made my world so small, which was surrounded by you and your thoughts. I came to know that the world is actually so big and bigger are the problems of others. Mine are just nothing.
If you think that I have tears in my eyes putting all these feelings into words, then you are thinking wrong. All I feel now is satisfaction that its over, the waiting is over and so did the pain.
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